I need to get away for a while. Like maybe a trip to New York City for a day. Life is becoming is stressful.
:/
So I decided not to go to school. It’s senior cut day and I personally just don’t give a fuck anymore.
I have a lot on my mind today. This month has gone by too quickly, & I’m trying to catch up to it, both physically & emotionally.
Scatterbrain
It’s funny to think that at some point in our lives, we were fighting for other people who weren’t worth it. We put as much energy as we dish out daily for someone who didn’t deserve shit. All the girls and guys who we tried to get with or did get with didn’t even understand us.
So what was the point?
Why did I even bother? Why did I make myself a slave to them? I don’t even like any of them anymore and when I try to find something that I may have liked, nothing comes to mind. What was so special about them that I stopped caring for life itself. All I wanted was to be that ~girl. I let myself be put down and unapprciated. I let myself cry many nights and wonder why was I in it at all?
I wish I could redo things, but I can’t. Not to mention, who’s to say he would have even have wanted to be with me anyway? Maybe it’s for the best that it worked out the way that it did.
But seriously, all them fucking years wasted on those assholes? I wish to god that I could take it back.
I passed out the other day. Just thinking about it makes my head hurt. If he hadn’t been there to catch me, I might actually be dead right now.
That’s some scary shit to think about.
